Stay away I tell myself, but I miss the feel.
I love, I crave.
The sickening addiction I can’t escape.
Helpless, and a slave.
Through my veins, into my soul.
Clear my mind, and take me whole.
Melt my pain with numbing flow.
Every hit I feel freed, and chained down as I bleed.
I hate what this does.
But for more, I beg, I plead.
Intoxication consuming me.
There, and back, and back, and back again.
Repetition is comforting, the habit consoling.
But poisons break me down.
I’m shaking in, all the way to the bone.
Withdrawal leaves wanting, and wanting again.
For the next, I need, I desire.
Intoxication burns like fire.
Filled with lust, disgusting hunger.
Stealing, taking, the things not mine.
Thrown away to quell my want.
Intoxication, I’m suffering.